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hi.

omg. today was a whirlwind. classes were blah. cca was fun and pissed me off. but after that was a mixture of happiness/kiligness/sadness and anger. hung out at the study area with Z and S while waiting for the rest of NCC andd L and Sh's stuff were in our care. laugh laugh laugh. :)) i got lectured by Z in MALAY. as if i understand. haha. theeen S produced a picture of C****. i've always been afraid of him. i watched the show when i was 7. i couldnt sleep for 3 days. and today brought back all the horrendous memories from that time. we started screaming like crazy. what is wrong with me? im not usually so sensitive.

the rest of the NCC finally arrived. we were still being teased about C**** and screaming like maniacs! walked out, got piched by D. and like still getting scared by the guys. got on 359 with them. still being frightened. :| thennnnnn. i was busy hitting S and i hit L. he went crazy, i got so afraid when he pinched me. then i started to cry. im not sure if it was hormones, the pain or me being afraid from him. :( i couldnt help myself. i just started to cry. it was an emotional vacuum. i wanted to disappear, i wanted to run and cry. :(

i have a new scar on my cheek. :(

i'll blog again in a while. maybe when my head is set right again. im gonna take a long warm shower to clear my head. :|