wednesday.

hi bitch.

okay so today, i was feeling kinda emo-ish. coz of some reason... and the odd thing was, the weather seemed to agree with me. it was rainy and almost no sun the whole day.

today was kinda boring. and uneventful. watched movies, clips, and talked. nothing important went on. fell asleep most of the day. and yeah.

oh and i had the weirdest dream during math today. it was about him, he was running. just running. the background was all white, no roads or anything. just him running and white surroundings. i could see him from the side, behind and infront. but it was like he could see right through me. oh well. its not important, i guess.

oh andddd, i took 17 with Alif and Haziq. t'was alright.

what am i to do now. im all messed up and its your fault. you dont even know it. i dont know who i am anymore. im depressed,angry and confused all at the same time. and this has never happened to me before. argh. i feel like asking your st friend about it since im not getting anything from you. but im becca. i have pride, and im slowly losing it because of you. im so annoyed with myself right now coz i sound so desperate. is this even worth it? i ask myself everyday. i used to think it was but now im not sure anymore. you've kept me awake at night thinking of what i mean to you. i break down and cry coz i feel so frustrated since nothing is happening and i think its all my fault. and i feel like such a coward for not being able to tell you what i really feel. GOD, you must really be something. but i need to know that im doing this for something.

AM I STILL IN IT TO WIN IT?

♔ B